lalala

horror strikes :/

2007-01-02T22:09:00.000-08:00

yay! today school start liao :DDD so happy to see my frens.. i mean cedar really rocks lor... so long nv been there.. then first day of school already feel so at home... lucky no one isolate me.. thank God bwahaha ;DD and yes thank God!! today i reached school at 7.20 sharp lor.. i mean my stupid bag spoil lor.. then it's so damn heavy and i had to carry it at the side.. my shoulder hurting like hell now but anyway i MUST thank God that i wasn't late for school today. ^^;

i was all sweaty when i reached the assemble area... so sian lor.. then no mood to sing the nationak athem and school song.. >////<; anyway..i super damn totlally hate it when ppb look at me that which dat kind of eyes lor... like so much contempt in them DD:< i think she so shocked i came back lor.. she must have had hope that i stay in china foreva... haiz haiz... curse that idiot ppb -___-;

later is recess. i missed the canteen food so much which is why cateen food suddenly tasted so nice to me. so nice got elaine and stephanie pei wo :DD later we wnet comp lap.. i was kind of hoping to maple BUT.. stupid comp is so damn ghey... it doesn't allow me to maple not even for one second... curse the idiot lab technician!! so here i am blogging.. my house dun hav comp and tv lor.. i super hate to go home.. everyday have to listen to mother nag like mad like that lor... haiz haiz... i've been on hiatus from blogskins and friendster for like 2 weeks liao... kena sia la ]:

and omfg.. so much hwi haven't completed... really want to die lor.. cos i dun even have the hw with me as in no one gave it to me mah.. but then the teachers all so sotong 1 lor.. they dunno i've not been in school for so long then dun have the hw then say must hand in.. haiz.. i also dun 1 to explain to them... so ya.. haiz.. really very pissed la... hope God bless me and let me overcome all the difficulties.. haiz...

2006-12-22T03:52:00.000-08:00

tralala~~ i went to mew's house yesterday. her compund is so big and nice... got clubhouse and swimming pool xD aww... so good for her lol :DD later sze rui also came... she even brought a cake.. yumyum ^__^ i was so happy :)) it was like a farewell party for me and we had lot's of fun...

first when sze rui not there that time mew and me kinda had nothign to do.. lol haha.. so we watched the sakura movie.. the first season 1... sakura looked so cute in the uniform and i love her bag... i feel like making one too xDD and KERO!! kero's the cutest of all ^w^ i want a kero soft toy :)) and of course the movie ended with a happy ending :]

later after sze rui arrived, we went to the club house...

we didn't really play any sport cos no racket... then we found out that the basketball court is open and we went in.. lucky we brought a ball along and we played monkey together with mew's sister.. lol... that was fun xDDD later on our way back, sze rui wanted to wash her hand with the swimming pool water but accidentally slipped and her leg fell into the pool. LMAO.. that was like really hilarious.. hahahaha.. :DDD

after we went back to mew's house.. we ate dinner and after awhile we opened the cake that sze rui brought. the cake looked so yummy :DDD hehehe and the cake is for me!! xDDD i went really crazy when i was eating the cake.. cos i'm so fat now... i used to be quite thing in singapore but when i came to this yuckie place i put on so much weight DDD: yuck. i need to loose weight lar... omg.. and i should have been eating cake... but.. hehe... so yummy... i just eat la... all hell broke loose xDD but i hated the whipped cream... the cream will make me extra fat.. hmm.. i went so crazy lol lolz...

whoo the cakie!!! looks great with all the candles xDD mew and sze rui made me sit on their laps in between them... hai.. lol :DD

mew and me!!! no doubt the crazier one is me la.. lol lol... can see that i didn't want to waste cream... or did i?

yay for star!! *~ this is called f r i e n d s h i p : )

and later sze rui gtg... haiz... cos her mom fetching her... and i decided to sleepover at mew's house.. mew's house so nice like hotel like dat.. lol... and she's kind enough to let me stay overnight :) i love mew.. yayyayyay!! i love sze rui too :) and at night i was in mew's room... [*AHEMAHEM*] and we didn't felt like sleeping... so i showed her the fateo video in my camera and hahahah... hehe, we laughed like mad... fat teo is really stupid... the way he goes "free racket! free racket!" he looked so gleeful xDDD well, it was really kinda boring without sze rui... mew suggested drawing out our dream guy,,,. she already drew hers before so i drew mine... hehx.. i've never dared to think about the future before >.>; if new never made me do this.. i mean... i've drew a guy cos i'm afraid that he'll look gay,... haiz... anyway... i drew out my dream guy... so called dream guy.. and erm.. later u i got damn bored and i drew fat teo.. hehe.. really looks like him.. he's so fat.. hahaaha.. all the fat one is fat teo la.. and the rest is some of my other classmates lol... i only think fat teo look like fat teo ^^;

lolz...

2006-12-18T03:51:00.000-08:00

Mood: Neglect
Reading: the screen
Watching: the screen

If you're into Harry Potter stuff , that is.

GRYFFINDOR
[ ] You've never done drugs (drugs as in??...)
[x] You have a lot of friends
[ ] You get along with everyone
[ ] You haven't made fun of someone for at least two months
[x] You love soccer (i love watching but dunno how to play :/)
[ ] You love baseball/softball
[x] You're into writing and art
[x] Favorite music genre is pop rock
[ ] You believe in "innocent until proven guilty" theory
[x] Abortion is wrong
[x] The war against Iraq is unneeded
[ ] One of your favorite colors is red or gold
[ ] Good grades at school
[ ] One of the worst things you can do is lie
[x] You plan on going to college

TOTAL: 8

HUFFLEPUFF
[x] You're content with mostly everything in your life right now
[x] You laugh a lot
[ ] You like to follow trends
[x] Politics suck
[x] You love to swim
[x] Water polo is awesome
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors
[ ] Black is morbid & depressing
[x] Michael Jackson is talented as a musical artist
[ ] You're an optimist
[ ] You're completely straight-edge
[x] You're very emotional
[x] Rap, R&B, & hip-hop is your favorite music genre
[x] You don't believe in going steady at a young age
[x] You've made fun of at least one person this week
(Many many!)
TOTAL: 10

RAVENCLAW
[x] You're depressed to a certain extent
[x] You love to read
[x] You appreciate theatre & arts
[ ] Sports suck
[ ] You're shy
[ ] Bush is trying his hardest
[x] You've been in love before
[ ]You're very smart
[ ] Hate is completely unneeded
[x] Loyalty is the MOST important thing in a relationship
[ ] Emo /screamo /indie is one of your favorite genre of music
[x] Every once in awhile you have little anger outbursts
[x] Lying is sometimes okay
[ ] Red is one of your favorite colors
[ ] Serious is better than funny
TOTAL: 7

SLYTHERIN
[x] There's at least one person you hate
[x] Basketball is a good sport
[ ] Football is amazing
[x] Black is a cool color
[x] You've lied about something serious
[x] You're a very deep person
[x] You have considered suicide
[x] Very loyal
[ ] Favorite music genre is metal
[x] They make school seem more important than it is
[x] You're scared to grow up
[x] You've done drugs in the past month
[ ] Anger is one of your primary feelings
[x] You have trust issues
[ ] Guilty until proven innocent
TOTAL: 11

OMG! SLYTHERIN :/ Draco Malfoy is cute

2006-12-18T02:20:00.000-08:00

LOOOOL! IQ tests are fuuuun :DDD omg!! i'm a genius :) lol lol lol xDD everyone take this test and drop me a tag? well, jus tag and tell me how much u got if u took this test too :))

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i wonder if i should change my blogskin cos i jus made a new 1... didn't get sotd but managed to squeeze into the top 15 rated list xD

[link]

yayyayyay! i shall post a screenshot here... i know this wouldn't last long.. yes...i shall capture this moment before some ghey rate me down :/

^^;

2006-12-17T06:03:00.000-08:00

so tired... *-* and today was like freezing cold... like 0-5 degrees... omg... i was like freezing to death and i was wearing so much clothes and looked so packed up >.<
aww.. T^T

well, today i went out with mom with her friends. i really didn't want to go but mom dragged me along -.- it was like a farewell party cos mom and i will be leaving shanghai soon :DDD i can't wait to go back!! i can't wait to go to church together with panda and my wonderful seniors!! lol...

and today i sang karaoke like mad... i sang for like 3 hrs with two cute boys beside me... hehehe... the boys really damn cute lor.... too bad i can't upload their photos if not i could show you how cute they are. they're so chubby!! aww... i kept pinching their cheeks.. lol hahaha :D

i had lots of fun today!! i love singing!! sang a lot of jay chou songs with my friend :)) and i haven't had enough but the adults say reached time limit... haiz... then i had to go lor... oh yeah... i place is called party world ktv... very nice place... i mean nice place for singing but the food kind of suck... :/

hmm... 7 more days!! 7 more days i'll be back HOME!!! can't wait... my dear friends, i miss ya all!! <3

2006-12-11T04:30:00.000-08:00

i stole this from some1's blog. mwahaha, i'm so evil.
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Pick the month u were born:

January - i danced with
Febuary - i loved
March - i choked on
April - i licked
May - i kicked
June - i murdered
July - i sang to
August - i had lunch with
September - i ran over
October - i smoked
November - i yelled at
December - i kissed

Pick the day (number) you were born on:
1 - a paperclip
2 - a monster
3 - a phone
4 - a fork
5 - a gangster
6 - a mexican
7 - a llama
8 - a banana
9 - myself
10 - my neighbour
11 - an ipod
12 - my dog
13 - chuck norris
14 - a stuffed animal
15 - a goat
16 - a pickle
17 - your mum
18 - a spoon
19 - my best friend's boyfriend
20 - a football player
21 - my boyfriend tounge
22 - a permanent marker
23 - a noodle
24 - my girlfriend
25 - a baseball bat
26 - my sister
27 - a cd
28 - my science teacher
29 - a thorn bush
30 - my cell phone
31 - a homeless guy

Pick the color of shirt you are wearing
White - Because im sexy.
Black - Because im a ninja.
Pink - Because im homosexual.
Red - Because i love her/him.[[choose]]
Blue - Because the voices told me to.
Green - Because i hate myself.
Purple - Because im an ass
Gray - Because im drunk as hell
Yellow - Because someone offered me 1,000,000 dollars
Orange - Because i hate my family.
Other - Because that's how i roll.

hmm.. let's see....
so

i yelled at a cd because i'm a ninja??? this is senseless *___*

Lol!!!!!!

2006-12-10T04:14:00.000-08:00

today i went to some place with mom... and it's was BORING! -.- until i met a cat, went gaga over it and couldn't stop taking photos of it :P

the cat was damn CUTE ^w^ u have to agree!!

still got tones of photos of the cat but i lazy to upload... so sad got one glass door T^T.. if not the cat in the photo would have looked a hundred times cuter.

the food in this resturant is damn ex lor... *__* and it's managed by my mom's friend... and my mom took some of her other friends there... the food was ok... but too sweet for me... and i had cappucino(sp?)...

this is the menu:

and FOOD! GLORIOUS FOOD!

even the toilet so high class #___#

and this is me and my random friend ^___^

the christmas spirit is HIGH!

and this is a shop beside the resturant :)

haha, that's all ppl :] will continue in next entry% ^^;

2006-12-09T00:33:00.000-08:00

nothing much happened this week... except that i've been sleeping damn late when i'm supposed to be hibernating.

I LOVE TVXQ!!!!!

sho cuute rite?
best korean band!

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I shall show all my scraps! >///<;

- mummy!! i want ice cream!!!

- capsuled

^w^ onigiri!!!

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haha :D for more go to [http://xindice.deviantart.com] :)
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2006-11-27T05:20:00.000-08:00

yay!! my birthday finally after 1 whole year of waiting. hehe :D i so happy ^_________^
LOL

nothing much happened today actually... except the present that Joo Min gave me ishh sho damn nicexx!!!

nice puplish effct ehs?

as u can see, it's the manga version of goong!! <33>
i love Joo Min!! i love Goong!!!

today was so sian... i was a total pyscho and i wrote some stuff like vibrator, condom, tampons and stuffs on this piece of paper with a boy's name on it. this boy always make fun of me 1 :( then he go show teacher the paper and i was like so damn dead... lucky later i managed to steal the paper away and flushed it down the toilet bowl which means that the teacher would never be able to show the freaking paper to my parents.. phew... ^w^ ~*~*~lalalalala~*~*~

yay! this pic is copyrighted by me. hehs.. although Faith said that there should be two couples as the main pic after i made the frame... lol.. onlny got my ugly face there la... since i so good mood i decided to show my face lol. i'm addicted to rainbow gradients :DDD

and i love the cake. i learnt from my korean friend 1 lol ^^ the 'candles' are actually pocky and the cake a a lotte cake.. lol ^__________^

i love korean ppl:DD i love goong!!

2006-11-25T02:30:00.000-08:00

went out with mum today and kind of celebrated my birthday in advance. cos the news report said that it'll rain tmr and my birthday's on monday... well, i hate mondays. mom and i went to this restaurant where everything seemed placid. it was a buffet-like restaurant but this place had near perfect service :D the waiter will bring whatever food from the menu that u want to ur table, any amount u want. and that's totally cool to order the waiters around... haha, i'm evil ;)

haiz... my b'dae's coming soooon... 2 more days... no, 1 day and 18 hours for the record. T-T i dun wanna grow up :( if only i can rewiiiiiiiind back to the past... well, i thought that this year 2006 would be great.. it started off so fine... everything was so fine. and year 2005 was a blast. it was bittersweet. i had everything - both joy and depression. 2005 was the psle year and i was so damn totally stressed and there's this girl in my class who bully me.. well, i thought that everything would jus end once i entered cedar. cedar is such a good school. the first few weeks wasn't that great and i felt kind of raw as i missed the orientation and was every close to my classmates... but soon i made some friends and 2 really close friends. i thought that this year 2006 would be great. everything's great with friends and we had everything... those state of euphoria ended when all things turned topsy-turvy... i was forced to leave my friends and what next? u should know... and i dun want to sound like a nag... i dun 1 to keep think about the past. neither do i want to know about the future. it's so totally freaking SCARY! the more i think, the more my head want to burst.

well, for me, personally, i hate lengthy posts with pictures and this post is exactly what i hate. i bet no one will read this and i'm just neutral... i dun care if ppl read this or not... school sucks... and what do my parents mean by i only can go back on 22 Dec.... so late?!?!!? better late than never -.- but it's still so late!!! only like 1 week than school will start and not enough time for me to prepare... cos i really need to prepare well not to make myself extra. *bleh* i wonder if i go back will ppl treat me as good as b4... will they think that i'm a traitor? ditched them and left and then go back... aiya.. i dun want to think already la... i wasn't feeling well this few days. stupid headache and here i am sitting in front of the glaring screen making my headache worst. that all folks.

-capsuled

2006-11-23T05:13:00.000-08:00

i HATE ppl who don't know a single shit and act as if they know alot. they totally piss me off DD:

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anyway... this is cool :D

haha :) try it urself too at http://www.deathclock.com/ :D

2006-11-22T03:46:00.000-08:00

i cried. i just did. of couse i didn't want to. but i couldn't help it. what can i do? this is like the worst nightmare... DDD: jus kill me T-T

i forgot to thank God[*slaps self*] for letting those gheys in China unblock blogspot. i can finally blog and skin. my skin new missed sotd by jus 1 pathetic fave. of couse i want sotd duh... but i won't die without it luh... God pls bless me... it sudden;y sounds so super scary.. the idea of going back to cedar... should i go back... or should i jus stay here and mix around... if i go back i'll feel extra... what will best friends do if they haven't seen each other for half a year? our friendship would have shattered... yes it has... even if it seems so perfect... all those emails and ims... they sound so nice but i know they're fake... my so-called friends didn't even mean them... they jus said it for the sake of feeling different... who would have this experience of having a friend leaving for another country... they wanted to try out something different... they want a free pen-pal like me... now i realised that i've been so damn stupid... my friends didn't lent a hand when i needed them the most... of course i can't blame them for a single shit... it's only a friendship that lasted for less than 2 mths... if only i had the chance to stay longer and get to know them better... life is unfair... the comp is my ranting place... should i stay or should i go... and y am i listening to sad songs like the babo song from goong ost... how stupid of me.. don't even know the title... i love goong and i pity Yul... but i know Yul os kind of finding trouble for himself.. i mean y must he, out of so many ppl, love caijing(stupid me.. can't remember her korean name)? oopsy.. y am i talking about goong.. now it's like SSIS vs CGS inside me... @________@ ---> this is how i look like now... totally screwed up. it's obvious that SSIS is a lousy informal school... and i mean i never ever wanted to go there in the first place... and i mean it. NEVER! why? why did God made me go there? since everything's God planned... my studies all left behind... so God made me come here to learn how to get along with boys?! or what? haix... girl school is so much better than a mixed school. in a girls' school, no one will call u a lesbian.. no girls will make fun of u saying thay u like another boy... no boys will bully u... my parents are stressing me.. um what did they just say? TEST? OMG... would the principal or whoever test me when i go back??! omg... this testophobia is coming again.. what kind of education is this?!?! learn sec 1 halfway.. they go learn sec 2 stuff half way.. then go learn sec 1 again... awww.... T-T i can help crying... and my head hurts like hell... i felt as if my brain's gonna burst.. fuck. what should i do... i won't be welcomed when i go back... no one wants me back... maybe only Elaine and Steph but i'm already long forgotten by the others... when i told them that i'm going back.. they're like: huh? u going back...?!!??! then i'm like: yup :) then they'll say: really meh? then u come back have to redo sec 1 rite?... wth... i'm so dead... AHHH... and Elaine pls don't worry too much about ppb... it's just one stupid annoying person that could be easily ignored.. but what about me??? i'm completely neglected and those other classmates would rather me to redo sec 1. fuck. fuckfuckfuckfuck!!! i have no one to tell my feelings to but this blog!! i bet no one will read this... no one for sure cos i edited older entry... no one will notice... why is it always like this? i get all the attention when i'm in trouble and don't want to be noticed and is always neglected when i really needs someone to help... haix... T-T i'm loss for words.

2006-11-22T02:27:00.000-08:00

Around the corner I have
a friend,
In this great city
that has no end,
Yet the days go by
and weeks rush on,
And before I know
it, a year is gone.
And I never see my
old friends face,
For life is a swift
and terrible race,
He knows I like him
just as well,
As in the days when
I rang his bell.
And he rang mine if,
we were younger then,
And now we are busy,
tired men.
Tired of playing a
foolish game,
Tired of trying to
make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say! "I
will call on Jim"
"Just to show that
I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes
and tomorrow goes,
And distance between
us grows and grows.
Around the corner!
yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram
sir" "Jim died today."
And that's what we
get and deserve in the
end.
Around the corner, a
vanished friend.

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i died

OMG!!

2006-11-21T01:47:00.000-08:00

tralalalalalalala!!~~~ i'm so extremely damn happy :D cos i can go into blogspot again! i can blog again! my blog revived!!! xDDD YAY!!!!

not in cedar now ):

2006-10-26T06:10:00.000-07:00

today during DT was damn hilarious. LMAO!

these are the other two china knots that i did. it's kinda fun making them :D
it looks complicated but it's actually very easy making them. during DT, all the girls asked me to teach them how to make this knot.

one of them was like - this china knot looks like a dick [-.-''']
WTF.. she's so sick D: then all the other girls started to laugh like hell and i can't help laughing with them >_>

later while teaching them [i knew my language and i didn't think that it's any big deal.. well, unless u're dirty-minded and u think wai...]
okok, i said something like - insert the string into the hole.. ok.. i kinda did it on purpose and i laughed... maybe not a laugh.. just a small chuckle xD

AND... all the other girls went rolling on the floor laugh.. ok, i'm exaggerating :p

so during DT, i laughed and laughed. laughing at the childishness of the people here. it's time to grow up >_<

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today for history, teacher asked us to bring and talk about spice. one boy brought this:

ok, it's just an empty bottle but it used to be filled with montheal steak dressing. and it tastes GOOD! i love it! it's sour - a bit like lemon and hot and spicy at the same time... and i kept begging the boy to give me more like a drug addicted like that >.<

the next thing.. horrors of horrors.. that freaking boy dared me to eat almost like about 1/4 of the spices in the bottle in one mouthful without drinking any water in 4 mins... and surprisingly, i took the dare. >6<

phew! that was so hot man! i felt as if my mouth was on fire and i could't help sticking my tongue out =P now i'm kinda sick of this spice having eaten so much of it.. but maybe after a few days.. i might want to taste it again! :D

2006-10-25T04:07:00.000-07:00

i love this poem la xD it's written by my senior Faith.

tomorrow
will seefriend pulled from friend
brother pulled from brother
bloodpouring like rain
gore
haphazardly strewn
all over the floor
executions
of innocent people
murders
for fun
wars
fights for peace
fights of malice
hate.
tomorrow
will send
expulsions
suspensions
monotonous lessons
conformity in students
so-called "unity"
punishments
F ones,B ones and "THIS IS CRAP" ones
failures on tests
of every kind
math
science
humanities
languages
arts
whatever.
tomorrow
will bring
deaths of people
global warming
haze in southeast asia
cancer in people
diagnoses of aids in others
the burning skydivining impending
doom.
tomorrowwill print
divorces by famous people
media gimmicks
fallacies
bad news
bad news
worse news
nonsense news.
tomorrow
is
the end.

YAY! Faith, u must be proud to see ur beautiful work here =D

2006-10-22T00:56:00.000-07:00

Take Me Higher

You're the only one who holds the key.
Thoughts I never expressed until I was
Pressed and unlocked from the inside.
Come out with an angry shout.
I never wanted them to see;
Always constrained by the chain,
But you hold the key to the deepest part of me.
My evil breathes through the seams,
Gasping and gripping onto my innocent gleam.

The key in my heart, I lean to take your hand.
So let us dance against the world,
Forgetting right and wrong in our final stand.

Smiles broaden against your soft lips,
Eyes bloodshot and red.
I fall into flight upon black wings of delight
Even though I'm dead. Arms around me,
We hang on time itself.
Dawn rising now and the world is a million miles away.
All I hear are the continuous echoes,
Birds singing for the new coming day.

2006-10-21T05:29:00.000-07:00

this is stolen from http://azuzephre.deviantart.com/" azuzephre

Death and her Beautiful Hair.
Journal Entry: Sat Oct 21, 2006, 2:14 AM

This weeks musings are about death. Sometimes I have recurring dreams or dreams that relate to each other, and this week has been a sequence of chapter book nighttimes. The past few dreams I remember having each portray a different scenario, but in each, someone is taken away by a woman with underwateresque black hair. I was listening to Cancer from the new MCR album, and it totally has the same feeling as each of the dreams. Theres a lyric in there, "The hardest part of this is leaving you." and I think it's the most depressing thing I've ever heard. I got a taste of it when I was asleep, but I couldn't imagine how much it would hurt to know that youre dying and that youd never see the person you loved most again. (I don't believe in life after death. I believe that whatever it is that's inside people gets absorbed into other people or back into basically anything. That's besides the point.) I wonder what would hurt more, though; leaving someone you love behind, or leaving without anyone to leave behind. It's kind of like trying to compare two fatally crushing depths, I think.

I also wonder if death is a dramatic ordeal when it happens or if it just happens. When you hear about some deaths, it feels like someone reached up your ass, grabbed the core of your chest and pulled it out (excuse my graphic nature), but sometimes when people die, it seems only as significant as any other exhale of breath.

Throughout most of my high school experience, I was the stereotypical emo kid. I wasn't the glamxcore type or the type that could hang out with the other emo kids. I was the type that had social anxiety disorder and less than 2 friends at any given time. A relative of a relative heard about the way I was, and apparently he related because he sent me a lot of printed material on how to get out of that sort of mess. I never thanked him for the help, and now it's eating a hole in my chest because he killed himself earlier this week. I don't know what sort of stuff he was dealing with, but it's not fair that some people get help while others don't. I don't understand it.

In any case, I'm gonna try to draw Death and her beautiful hair tomorrow. Maybe that'll help me get rid of these nightmares.

2006-10-20T03:03:00.000-07:00

joyce asked me to do this x)

# 1; single taken or crushing?
it's complicated >_< # 2; are you happy with your life? wad do u think? no quite actually but i'll just learn to appreciate the things around me. xD # 3; when you've met the right person, will you fall in love with him/her fast? i dun think the right person even exsist -.-

# 4; have you ever had your heart broken?
heart broken? as in those relationship stuff? nah...

# 5; do you believe that in some circumstances when cheating love is acceptable?
neva :D

# 6; will you ever take someone back if he/she cheated on you?
i dunno =X

# 7; have you ever talked about marriage with another person before?
duh. wif my mum :)

# 8; do you want children?
i dun think dat far >.< # 9; how many? i dun plan my future >.< # 10; would you consider an adoption? maybe... # 11; if someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let him/her know your feelings? through msn lor :/ i'm not very good at speaking and typing would be a lot more easier. xD # 12; do you enjoy getting into a relationship? how would i know?! i'm only 12 =X # 13; be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex have done before? i dun even hav an ex hello o.o # 14; do you believe in first love? wat's first love? o.o; # 15; you believe that you can change someone? YES! - just what i believe in. XD # 16; are you romantic? aiyo wat a question :/ how can a 12 year old girl like me be romantic?

# 17; if you could get married anywhr, where would you want it to be?
never thought of marrige but i would very much like it to be in outer space!!

# 18; do you easily give up in fighting?
you meant in tournaments or what?

# 19; have you ever wished that you could have someone but messed it up?
yup:( i feel stupid -.-

# 20; do you have feelings for someone right now?
i think i hav feelings for everyone o_o

# 21; have you ever broken a heart?
i dunno o.o"

# 22; if one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl you love, what would you do?
it's not my problem =P

# 23; are you missing someone right now?
OF COURSE! I MISS ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS! ESPECIALLY STEPH AND ELAINE! XD

2006-10-16T03:57:00.000-07:00

stolen from caijing's blog. mwahaha. xD

Name twenty people you can think of right now. Don't read the question(s)until you've named the 20 people. At the end of this, choose five people to do this]

1. Elaine
2. Steph
3. HuiQin
4. YaoXiong
5. Johan
6. SzeRui
7. Kamie
8. Kemei
9. Faith
10. Dione
11. YiBei
12. Joanne
13. Mandy
14. Ester
15. Jonathan
16. Brian
17. CaiJing
18. JooMin
19. WooKyung
20. HuiYee

coming up with 20names at one go is tough.
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How did you meet #17?
Blogskins! Caijing's supposed to be my senior :D

What would you do if you didn't meet #4?
oh Yaoxiong.. He's my friend's bf and i wont do anything if i haven't met him. LOL

What if #12 and #3 dated?
erm, i dun think Joanne and HuiQin knows each other... but if Joanne dates HQ, Yaoxiong would be jealous for sure :P

Would #9 and #20?
would wad. they're from two different countries and havent got a clue about who is who.

#11 attractive?
YiBei!!! She's sho cute!!

Describe #10.
Dione! She's such a nice bubbly PC :)

#15 family members?
*shrugs* [oh dear]

What would you do if #1 confesses to you that he likes you?
Elaine is a girl lol xD and of course she likes ME! we're BEST friends!! <3

What language does #18 speak?
JooMin speaks KOREAN of course :D

Who is #12 going out with?
Joanne sure attracted many boys ^w^

how old is #19?
Wookyung is 14! she's a year older than me and she's KOREAN!

Who is #5's favourite band/singer?
erm, Johan is a retarded hamster. wat songs? hamster songs? LMAO

would you ever date #7?
Kamie? no, she already has a bf x)

Would you ever date #4?
Yaoxiong?! course NOT. HQ will kill me. lol

Is #2 single?
hmm.. my dear Steph <3 u'll get married before me xD

What's #13's last name?ha
Mandeh!! Mandy Lim <33

Would you ever be in a relationship with #14?
no la. Ester is hetero

School of #6?RJ
ssis D:

Where does #9 live?
Faith, i think she lives in parkway parade there. She lives in Singapore on Earth duh.

Have you seen #5 naked?
OMGG! who wants to see that hamster naked... anyway, he once worn boxing shorts that are so short that he looks as though he's not wearing underwear. LMAO!

okie, finally the end!! i choose:
-Steph
-Elaine
-HQ
-Mandy
-Ester
to do the same ^__________^

2006-10-10T18:59:00.000-07:00

i CAN actually go in Wikipedia by offing firewall!!! xD xD XD XD~

2006-10-09T02:47:00.000-07:00

school started today.. >____<>.<>teehee :D i'm a fast learner! xD xD

TADA!

YAY! i made this myself. XD XD

and this is just a picture of the moon i took during the mid-autum
festival. xD

2006-09-29T04:33:00.000-07:00

now i wish all my friends who are having exams in singapore GOOD LUCK!!:D
ESP STEPHANIE AND ELAINE! ALL THE BEST! (X
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i'm obsessed with High School Musical now:p if only i can watch it........ if i were in Singapore, i would have been able to watch HSM on disney channel.. now in freaking shanghai, i can only listen to the songs )=
the songs are really nice:D so all i can say is half a loaf is better than none =.=

today is actually the PTC day. somehow i managed to convince my parents not to go to school and meet the bloody teachers.. hehe ;)
and now it's the national day break in shanghai.. and i feel so sQuiSheD la.. my parents dun seem to want to bring me anywhere out of freaking shanghai.. i hate here like hell la D: and i have no idea how to spend my holidays =(

maybe i can make more skins^-^ but...
haix.. so much homework :( i have to do both ssis and cedar homework.. i'm so SqUiShEd bY sTreSs >.<

2006-09-25T07:24:00.000-07:00

today i so suay lor..

first, i forgot to bring my freaking pencil case to sch and.. die lor.. have to borrow pen from him=.='''
t
hen later i broke the handle of his pen by accident.. it's okay la.. i apologised.. after dat the idoit drama teacher asked us to act out some stupid xi you ji thingy. aiyo.. so lame la.. dunno what to act 1 lor.. so i anyhow do but she like not satisfied like dat>.< lor="X

then later i accidentally broke another one of his pen... >_____________<

i damn pai seh lor -.-
i feel so lame>_<

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just watched singapore idol on youtube^o^
so cool man:D
but compared to the 1st one.. the 1st season 1 better..
now left with Hady and Jonathan.. i dun really like them both.. can't really decide who i like better... but i think Jonathan can sing la~

w00t!

2006-09-24T05:35:00.000-07:00

i'm home now drenched in sweat.. just played badminton with my dad=X
before dat, i watched Stormbreaker - it totally rocks!

and Alex Pettyfer is so COOL!:D

w00t!

good night

2006-09-24T01:59:00.000-07:00

yesterday my mum pulled me along with her to go to one outing thingy from 1 website that she's in.. and ya.. it's held in one Hilton hotel in Shanghai(x

the main entrance

one of the restaurants there

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and look at this! chao cute la^_________^

my mother's friend's son^^

he loves pink(x

and aww.. he's so chubby!~^_____^ [guess who's hand is that pinching his cheek;]

2006-09-23T07:17:00.000-07:00

yup, i was so bored.. so i did these tests(x

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

You Are 64% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

2006-09-16T22:23:00.000-07:00

sO cOnfUsEd.. >.<

today my parents came back from singapore.. duh=.=
and they said that i can go back to singapore next year.. suddenly i start to miss cedar so much... i begin reminiscing all the sweet time i had with my friend.. aww.. so sweet^^

ya.. but i dunno if i WANT to go back.. it confusing.. haix..
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*aiya.. slaps self]xx

i shall analysis..

if i go back i will be back with my close friends and we could hang out at mcdonalds and go shopping and do lots of fun stuff 2gether. :DD

and of couse i can go to church.. with panda of course.. can't exaimagine how great it'll be xDXDXD
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but now since my parents are back.. haiz. they're nagging like hell=( i hate being ask to tidy my room and aiya.. so tiring la.. i'm just tired of being tired.. and for the fact that i luv being messy.. [i know where my things are=X]
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so shall i go back.. it up to me i know.. mayb i shall just shuddup and go and skin la..

2006-09-16T03:37:00.000-07:00

today i dun feel very well.. i'm sick - attacked by flu virus... stupid headache and sorethroat and blocked nose [sniff*sniff*x]

well, today might be the last day dat i can use the comp for so long cos my parents will be coming back later tonight... they said that they bought lots of goodies for me:D and i can't wait for them to be back.. cos at the same time.. my stupid aunt would be leaving! yayness!^^

yesterday that stupid korean girl sitting beside me go and lose my eraser then just now i went out to buy another 1 then shun bian buy the notebook 4 valerie... after that i treated myself mcdonald's ice cream((:

on my way home.. i took a some photos.. they're some places near my house.. anyway my dad promised me that i'll be moving house soon.. to some place near my sch.. so just took some photos to ji nian..

2006-09-14T09:43:00.000-07:00

haiz... so late liao...

and i thought that i was the only 1 online when ppb suddenly popped out. but she sleep liao... every1 abandoned me =( ppb was talking to me about what they're doing in cedar.. and she said that they had to do a song about levers in groups.. WTF?! levers... how in the world can any1 make a song with dat.. =.= and while searching for songs ppb came across this funny website XDXD

hehe :DD noticed anything strange?

2006-09-13T03:57:00.000-07:00

WOW! this person is so great and talented!! i admire him so much^^

here are a few pieces from him((:

2006-09-13T03:44:00.000-07:00

aiya i'm so retarded=.=

these songs are really nice((: i tried posting them last time but dunno y cannot:(
but now can XDXD

2006-09-12T08:11:00.000-07:00

last night was so cold [*shivers*] now it's autum here and so cold.. i might freeze to death in winter.. ahhh, can't imagine. and last night was so cold... that i dreamt that some1 hugged me... aiya.. to get body heat la... but still it's weird [*slaps myself*]... as i dreamt i felt warmer, lol, i'm lame... so is this called mind over matter? mayb... cos after that then i realise that i was actually hugging my blanket so tightly.. i was really cold and i felt sick... stupid bus lor.. i hate that sch bus.. make me wait so long in the rain then no doubt i get sick ma.. haix, i hate ssis to the core!D:

and today sch was horrible.. dun wanna talk bout it... [*vomits blood*]
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i realised that i can't live without stephanie for not even a day.. i must chat wif her on msn lor... then later i invited ppb.. actually i shouldn't but who cares.. ppb at least is better than those proud ssis ppl lor...

read this:

2006-09-09T21:54:00.000-07:00

till now i still haven't mastered the art of poetry writing.

why does my poems sound like nursery rhymes.. no. they're worse then that..

they rhyme and they sounds cute... but cute isn't the thing. they're like the songs dat little children sing - the words rhyme, but there isn't any real meaning in them.

haix.. dat's y i dun even dare to post my poems in deviant art... i'm a failure... if only i could be more daring and be more certain of myself... why sometimes things just dun cum out the way i want them to...

coolthang, i truly admires u!http://coolthang.deviantart.com

2006-09-09T05:45:00.000-07:00

hiya..

they've left.. my parents have finally left! [they've gone back to singapore without me. HOW EVIL!

and my aunt's here.. she's so fat and round and roly-poly... it's so weird being with her...
although it's in my own home, i still feels uneasy with this aunt around..

and i'm so stressed.. emotionally. i have to move house and the bus number changed.. it's so werid and so hard for me :'( [*sobs**]

(u wont understand.)
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who the hell is attila? i had to search on dis person for history... and it's so difficult... this sch's so lame, make us do this kind of dumb thing. ohya.. he's a hun.. omg a hun?? urghh, i hate homeworks..

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t e l l m e t h e t r u t h , w i l l y o u ?

2006-09-08T06:24:00.000-07:00

today lessons all so damn boring lyk hell... i almost slept=.=

this particular person, WO HEN SI NI!!

i hate here. i hate shanghai. i hate ssis. i hate those teachers...

i find myself not as enthu as last time. i feel that i strongly needs support and encouragement from frens. without panda and elaine and all my close frens, i feel so abandoned.. it's lyk no one even bothers to care about me - i'm alone, all by myself.

Sometimes I feel like I'm a bird with broken wings
At times I dread my now and envy where I've been
'Cause that's when quiet wisdom takes control
At least I've got a story no one's told
[lyrics: whatever will be]

who would help me fix my broken heart? i doubt any1 would even botherto care about me. i'm just a small fry :'( i might never be who i used to be...

:X Gd night
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the only place that i can find myself... it's blogskins... no, it's the internet - blogskins, deviantart, fanfiction and youtube?

they are my regrets

no, they're not :#

at least i've improved^^

i'm proud of myself at least..

i can stand on my own, yayness!

i love skinning [what motivated me to live on]

i forgets all my troubles when i skin^^

w00ts!

my improvents?!

TADA!:

you want them? feel free to download - www.blogskins.com/me/xindi

2006-09-05T06:13:00.000-07:00

today i received my uniform... they so damn heavy lor

and it's lyk OMG!! the skirt is so damn ugly - it's red and checkered :( ~blehz} i hope i wont get to wear that 4ever ~~~
- i really dun lyk this new sch - really.

there's this teacher who teaches my class english and loves drawing smiley faces =.=
and a SUPER lame form teacher who doesn't know how to teach... the science teacher talks so much crap and i dun bother listening to her crap.. *yAwn*~

haix, want to sleep already-_- hahas:D good night and sweet dreams~^^=

it's so sad lor... though i dun know him much... it shows that anything can happen in life... =(

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Sometimes you know things that you don't know. Trust your subconcious. Let your instinct guide you.

2006-09-01T06:25:00.000-07:00

just received Stephanie's email!! i'm so glad that she told me so many things that happened in Cedar. haix, i missed both Cedar NDP and teacher's day celerbration which were both very fun =(

time flied so fast, it already a week since i join this new sch. i dun really hate this sch but of course Cedar's much better. if given the chance, i'll sure go back.

this new sch really gives me the feeling of my primary sch... esp. the teachers - i dunno if it's dat they are pri sch standard or they treat their testudents lyk pri sch kids-.- the achers in Cedar are much better lor, ~~though i dun really lyk Franklin~~

Cedar really rocks a lot and the ppl there are far more mature than the ppl here. and it's dat i dun have any stress here, haha, i wonder if it's a gd or bad thing... cos i scared when i go back to singapore i'll be left behind>.<

and it's dat my house is so far from m ysch lor.. then hav to take the sch bus for so damn long ='( i complained to my father and he said that he would be considering moving house to a place nearer to the sch:DD

btw, this morning the stupid sch bus broke down, lolx, and we all took taxi to sch. [i should have bought a camera:p]

2006-08-27T06:33:00.001-07:00

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Elaine is your soulmate.

You truly love Yibei.

You consider Stephanie your true friend.

You know that Ivy is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Emma for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Valerie is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Mandy is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Ester is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Ester changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Audrey is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Elaine has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

2006-08-27T05:47:00.000-07:00

today i felt rather restless.. and didn't feel lyk doing anything:(

and tomorrow i will be going to sch.. er.. i'm seem to be the only transfer student=(

i'm so tired today, although i didn't do much things. i'm tired bcos my parents nagged and nagged non-stop for me to tidy up my messy room. after i tidied, they again, confonted me for not reading the textbks... o.O i wan 2 die la. and i dun 1 to go to dat stupid sch, i want to go back to cedar... i dun care, i just want to go back.. i hate it here, i hate it lots and i'm not happy at all. =(

later my auntie came to my house and my parents began to talk to her and they sort of abandoned me which was a good thing... then my mother said that she 1 to play majong but she so evil, never ask me if i 1 to play. so i just joined them and i keep winning for dunno what reason, hehe... :D

haix, i really dun 1 to go sch tomorrow.. God pls bless me, make me less self consious tomorrow... and hope i can make some friends there>.<

2006-08-27T00:48:00.000-07:00

YAY! finally uploaded my precious neoprints:DDD
they're taken quite some ages ago cos there seemed to be some problem with my stupid scanner. i love all my friends!

2006-08-22T06:01:00.000-07:00

yay! today i'm very happy cos i helped a stranger. and i'll not talk much about it, blehz i'm lame=_='''

every tuesday and thursday means hell to me=( today, again, i suffered under that so-called teacher's monotonous lesson...

then i was so damn bored... so i drew a picture, it's nice(:

well, i thought of 'i'm with u' by avril lavigne... i know i got the lyrics wrong but i dun care:p

and now i'm making a blogskin out of it(:
mandy's right i'm a fast blogskin maker^-^

2006-08-21T05:40:00.000-07:00

today i accompanied m0m t0 a h0spital cos she need to do check up and bl00d test and stuff...

then later that day i went to a damn big bookshop nearby. but then inside the bookshop only got 1 damn small corner have english books lor.. but there got tintin, my favourite!! since they sell those tintin books until so damn ex, i decided to sit down and read. and i finished one whole bk, u know the 3-in-1 kind 1, in 1 and a half hours... the bk that i read inside got [[the broken ear]], [[the black island]] and [[king onokar's sceptre]]. my fave is [[the broken ear]], really funny and nice((:

so today was great! i totally love tintin:DD

//(but i totally can't stand those show offs... just bcos they go america b4, they dun have to let the whole world know... and if u dunno who i'm talking about, they sure know.)

2006-08-20T04:48:00.000-07:00

today my mom made me drink yuckie turtle soup cos she made it and it tasted terribly bad=(

later my parents went out, so i stayed at home and watched tv, >.< and there's this show called dunno what cos i 4got the name. i'st lyk a reality show and some ppl who are all man have to compete with one another.... and they are so ugly lor and their singing sucks lyk hell, i wonder y those ppl in the jap class are crazy over this show=_='''

and did i mention that i made this new skin in my previous entry?... well hahas, i spent lots of effort in this skin too. ^^;

and YAY!! i'm so happy that panda actually like the skin that i made for her(((:

and now i'm starting to miss panda and elaine lots... yesterday rabia msned me to ask me how's life.. i'm so damn touched lor>.< I REALLY LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS!! :huggs:

2006-08-18T23:22:00.000-07:00

i hate that jap class, nvm i'll not talk 'bout that.

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yesterday was great! cos i made some new friends>.< href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/6163/2667/1600/??????218.0.jpg">

2006-08-12T05:27:00.000-07:00

i wonder if life's getting better...

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few days back my comp contracted a deadly virus... yuck! and i have to change it.

guess what, a miracle happened! my comp could run blogger! now i'm snugged in my comfy armchair posting a new entry, the feeling inside me is so wonderful^-^

and of course, making skins will me much easier for me, instead of testing them on blogskins, i can now test them on blogger which will be much more convient:) XDXDXD

and of course the first thing i did is making a skin for myself! which is what i'm using currently(x

not much too blog but i know for sure that blogging will be much easier for me just like the days when i'm in singapore and of course i will blog frequently. stay tuned, lol

2006-08-03T01:12:00.000-07:00

*Sign! i missed so much fun!! so sad that my unreasonable parents put an end to my wonderful cedar life;( Few days back, my classmates or should i say ex-classmates voted for the next head prefect>.<>.< {anyway if she know me also no use rite -_-''' sign... and that idiot ppb everything also copycat other ppl 1 and she copyed Panda and also voted for Yusin which is a gd thing actually^^

2006-07-02T03:55:00.000-07:00

again, i'm in my father's company now:)

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i'm really a fervent world cup fan!! and i really love Germany, i thought that they world win in the 2002 world cup but didn't know that Brazil won:( {haha, this time France knock out Brazil*_ [i know Germany would win this year, yes they will!]

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and recently panda asked me for my photo -_-"' {diaoz, i dun hav any photo with me o_O... what to do?=3] and i miss panda and elaine so so so much... >.<

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and i just read elaine's blog :) ppb is such an idiot^*/#o%£2r(&4$@

haha, someone hacked her maple acc. and she lost all her valubles... haha, serve her right^^ [too bad i can't play maple here, but in my heart, almondeyes will always there:)

2006-06-17T21:21:00.000-07:00

finally!! the day finally came!! i can finally blog cos i'm i n my father's company and dun ask me why. the happiness in me now is ineffable! i'm so joyous now!! but anyway, those few days at home was not so bad cos at least i made a few blogskins with the macromedia fireworks free trail... i dun really know how to use it so i jus anyhow doodle lor... but please go take a look at my skins, i spent lots of effort in making them!! here's a direct link http://blogskins.com/me/xindi :)
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anyway if u ask me about my life here.. i can't answer cos its terrible!!
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hope elaine and panda and every1 won't 4get me... really u all must not 4get me!!

xxxxx

really nothing to do these few days... so i watch world cup lor..
i'm a fan u know... the 2002 one i also got watch.. and i know that brazil won..

okok.. i can b very enthusiastic!! yes yes! really!! i think germany rocks and i hope they win cos anyway it's held in their home ground.
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and.. nvm, i will not talk about football stars...

~~i think life is meaningless. all my precious memories almost gone... i'm left with nothing.. i missed so much fun. is this all god planned? anyway, life is so damn unfair.~~

2006-05-26T04:26:00.000-07:00

woosh...
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today the rock band Ronin came to our sch!!! i was so excited.. >.<
=_="
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i shouldn't be so fussy but its unfair... [shall not disclose any more information but.. i really feel so pissed]] REPORT BOOK!!! i want to die... its really not so bad... but i'm crazy... i went comp lab and wasted my time mapling the whole afternoon to ..dEsTreSS..!?

aHAhaHAhaHAhaHAhaHAhaHAh

really really feels lyk screaming..
:#
i want to leave this idiotic world and this teacher is unfair it was simply without any evidnece...without any at all!! and every1 look here.. she called my mom jus to tell her that i'm the BIGGEST suspect who steal that damn afiqah's phone..who 1 to steal her idiotic phone la!!
stupid stupid stupid!! stupid report bk!!

stupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupid ihateppb this little light of mine...ppb blown it all out...now i'm in the darkness..i'm suffering in silence____ +_+

T_T

:'(

='(

2006-05-19T03:42:00.000-07:00

it has been one whole week since i haven't blogged. since then so many things happened...
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she apologise. she did it in front of the teacher and the class. BUT right after she apologised, she insulted me by calling me an idiot and lied to me for no good reason. Is she taking her revenge? but its none of my fault and all her fault...she anyhow accused me and almost made me hav no frens...T_T lucky Elaine isn't that guillible unlike the rest of the class.
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i'm not going to care now..i've suffered so much! today is suppoesed to be a happy day, well..its Cedar's annual cross country and she spoiled my day! she pushed me for no reason and made me fell and spang my ankle! my ankle was so pain at first..thank God...during the race i didn't feel much pain..BUT after the race, my ankle is burning pain! and i suffered in silence...

why..

why is she so evil...does she really hate me so much?!...why must she make me suffer? i'm all broken becos of her..totally heartbroken.

so..

those kind of spoilt and idiotic creature really exist...but God hav eyes...